Friday, October 15, 2010

Never thought I would react this way...

So last time I came up to my moms, a lady merged into our lane without looking, brakes were slammed on, horn was honked, obscene hand gestures were made. Scared the crap out of me. I never thought I would ever be bugged by something like this.

Today I had like a panic attack because of it. Was driving to Tacoma, to see my mom, and as I pass cars my heart races and i tend to swerve to the left (when in the fast lane), or away from another car. Today not only did my heart race but I cried. I don't think it was because i was that scared, I was more upset with myself for letting this get to me so much. I've always thought about cars merging without looking but now i think everyone is doing it even when they arn't. I really didnt think that I would be traumatized by something like that. People cut people off all the time or turn when they arnt supposed to or wahtever and its never bugged me and now Im scared to drive on the freeway and now even more that Im going to freak out over nothing and end up getting in an accident anyways. Ugh.

This isnt acceptable in my book and Im more upset with myself for letting this one incident get to me soo much. I know the incident was traumatizing but it could have been worse ya know? It just aggravates me.

1 comment:

  1. Mama prays for you all the time so it'll be okay....I know the feeling though.
    A semi truck decided to pull into my lane today without looking and i had to go into the other lane and ran those people into the next lane..UGH

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