Just Breathe

This Song by Anna Nalick is one of my favorites. Anytime Im stressed this song calms me a bit. Reminds me to Breathe. 

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,

"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,

I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"

Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes

Like they have any right at all to criticize,

Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable

And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table

No one can find the rewind button, girl.

So cradle your head in your hands

And breathe... just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss

"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,

"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."

Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,

But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,

Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,

And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.

No one can find the rewind button, boys,

So cradle your head in your hands,

And breathe... just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,

You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out

And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again

If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song

If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,

Threatening the life it belongs to

And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd

Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud

And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,

And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table

No one can find the rewind button now

Sing it if you understand.

and breathe, just breathe

woah breathe, just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe. 

Things have been good besides me being sick for a week and sleeping for 3 days. Must have needed it. Im getting back into a normal routine. Getting my books read and getting back to working out. Still doing well on eating good. well kinda. haha. I have lots planned for this year including new glasses and pictures with my boy. 

He is doing great by the way. doing amazing in school and getting better at controlling his temper. I <3 him. But thats all...wanted to share this song because it calms me down or makes me cry...either way i get it all out listening to this song haha.

Don't Get me started! seriously...

Ok seriously, I am all for everyone having their own opinion...Dont get me wrong but I can not stand racists. Everyone was brought up differently and i get that but seriously. my son is at the very least a quarter Mexican and I was brought up to care about everyone no matter what their race or social class is. I am all for equality for everyone and to be completely honest, We (as in white people) or our ancestors were horrible to African Americans between slavery and then the segregation laws...we treated them like shit and why? because they were different. Same with gay people...why cant they be treated the way "we" all want to be treated? I will say that we have come a long way from where we were even 50 years ago, but still are we seriously that big of assholes to not have an open mind? Maybe Im the only one that feels this way or so strongly about it but It irks me beyond belief.

On a better note...This semester will be better, I can tell already. My tax book is actually interesting and my finance class should be fun. Im so excited to do math! I miss it a lot. English should be fairly easy...Im off to a good start and cant wait to keep it up. im doing great with my budget as well and am starting to work out again starting tomorrow.  I think i will start running on the treadmill at school before class when I get to school. Hope everyone has a good week. Luv you all.

New Year = New Possibilities

So I have lots of goals for this year and I am determined to accomplish all of them! This new year will be better then last year for everyone I am sure. So here are my goals:
1. Be a better friend, mother, and student. I really need to stay in touch with my friends and hang out with them more...Im determined to have more of a social life this year. I think I deserve it since the last few years I have done nothing but school and work. Tristan is a great kid and Im always told Im a great mom but I really would like to spend more time with him and doing fun stuff. Last year was a blast and it seemed like I was always going places and doing things with him and I hope to do the same this year.
2. Do better in school. Now that I know what to expect out of this new school, I will try harder. I am going to be dropping to either 2 or 3 classes a semester and am planning on getting a part time job at least just to have that extra cushion...Plus i will need one for the summer as I will be taking summer semester off. I need a break in between so I can focus better.
3. GET IN SHAPE! This is always on my list of Goals for the new year but this year I am determined. I am already in the habit of eating better and use my Wii to work out a bunch but I really would like to be able to run. Stupid I know but I have never been able to run even when I danced 6 days out of the week. I think I may get a gym membership...or just work out at the school gym...Just gotta make it a habit so I wont have to force myself to do it.
4. Save money for my vacation.  I really want to travel somewhere and I am determined to save some money for that. I have 3 places in mind and each would require a different amount haha. But where ever I go I want to be there at least a week! I am in dire need of a vacation so I am determined to save some money.

There are some of my goals for this year. I can't wait to see what 2011 has to offer me. I have faith that there will be many new possibilities for us all and I know we all will have a great year.